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my word of the year…

beautiful-rain-photography-6You just gotta laugh at life sometimes. I mean, seriously, the universe does have a sense of humor. We can chose to play along with forces much bigger than we are, or grumble and fight against whatever life presents to us. It is just way too exhausting to deny reality. So why not choose to see things as happening for us, instead of against us?


Last year my word of intention was actually three words: “Fire” and “Sacred Vessel.” I was itching to make big changes, so I stated clearly in my journal and meditations “Burn up what no longer serves in my life, my body, my mind so that I can be a sacred vessel of transformation for this planet.” Yeah, when I set intentions I tend to think BIG. So universe laughed and gave me what I asked for.  2012 was the year I decided to let go of anything that made me feel small, kept me stuck in a rut or did not treat me with loving kindness:


  • Yes, that included a few relationships with really good people who were occasionally unkind, people I loved but people who I perceived loved me for what I did for them, and not for who I really was. (I’ve never “broken up” with anyone, so this was a HUGE leap for me.)
  • In a powerfully transformative experience after my 21 days of solitude in the spring, I let go of a lifetime of shame that kept me from seeing the absolute perfection and beauty of all that had occurred in my life.
  • I let go of being a victim to my memories, or to anything, actually, particularly myself.
  • I let go of fear of being seen fully, and maybe even burned up lifetimes of persecution for daring to be me as a healer, leader and woman of power.
  • In May, I said to the universe “Clear out what I can’t see is holding me back.” Universe smiled and within 3 days we were given a sudden notice by our landlord.  I joked with my husband that evening that we needed a place to live for only 6 months, because after that we would begin to travel. I quipped “Oh, and while we are at it, between us we have lived in every county in the SF Bay area except Marin, so we should land there, and I want a house with a big yard for Bodhi, with a garden and beautiful view and hardwood floors.” The very next morning I found us a fully furnished house that was sublet for 6 months, and yes, in Marin, with hardwood floors, on the side of a hill, with a big yard full of beautiful nature.
  • Within 2 weeks of getting notice, we sold all our furniture, gave away many of our belongings and moved most of what remained into a tiny storage unit.
  • We began in earnest to dream of our travels to Central and South America, but something felt not quite right, as if it were a journey for us, but not for divine purpose. So I asked “What else is blocking us from our dreams?”  Universe was gleefully dancing by this time.  In October while we were visiting our family in Kauai, I was meditating at the sacred spot where Jordan and I had gotten married, a place where the waves come in from 3 directions and the wind speaks to me of letting go, always letting go. I joked with Spirit “Well, I guess what is left is Jordan’s job. He is not going let go that easily, so could you help us out?” Within 2 days, the evening after we arrived home, Jordan invited me out to dinner and happily announced “Well, the Universe has spoken…. I was laid off today.”  We could not have planned it better ourselves.
  • Within 3 weeks of that day, with his severance and a lot of research and very hard work, we committed to traveling the US for a year, bought a Casita travel trailer (think akin to a very small fiberglass cutie shaped like an Airstream), along with a new Jeep to pull the Casita, and cleaned out our belongings even more.


I don’t think I have ever felt so unencumbered before. It’s as if we are in free fall, learning to fly along the way. This past 2 weeks has been one of the most transformative times in our 10 years of marriage. We have both dug deep and uncovered wounds that were keeping us distant, from ourselves and from each other. We revealed and raged, cried and healed. The old stories are burning up and our partnership is reigniting. I am watching this man I adore step into his masculine power, and it gives me the courage to surrender more into my feminine power. What a gift this year of Fire has been!


New Years Eve Jordan announced “I want to learn to have more fun.” I smiled because “Play” is the word I have chosen for 2014.


So, Universe, I state it clearly:  I want to learn to Play more.  I want to surrender to your divine Play and trust your desire for me to be abundant, healthy and happy.  I want to learn to have more Fun, and to laugh more often at myself and at life. I am so looking forward to the Adventure. So bring it on. I am yours. Let the games begin.


From my laughing-and-so-ready-to play heart to yours,


Toi Lynn



some things i am learning

While I was visioning last week...

While I was visioning last week in Kauai…


Once you start to awaken,
no one can ever claim you again for the old patterns.
Now you realize how precious your time here is.

You are no longer willing to squander your essence
on undertakings that do not nourish your true self;
your patience grows thin with tired talk
and dead language. 
You see through the rosters
of expectation, which promise you safety
and the confirmation of your outer identity.
Now you are impatient for growth,
willing to put yourself in the way of change.
You want your God to be wild
and to call you to where your destiny awaits.

~ John O’Donohue


The Misery of Attachment
I used to believe that if I wanted something, it required me to focus on the details of my vision, and then work hard to make it happen. When I say work hard, I mean work HARD. Journal like crazy about it.  Make vision boards about it.  Yearn for it.  When I didn’t get it, what ever IT was, I felt shame about doing something wrong or thinking I had an unconscious block, something wrong with me, that was preventing me from getting what I wanted. I’d be disappointed, in my life and myself, and so very tired from all the effort.


Sound familiar? I hear this a lot in people around me, this painful attachment to outcome.
“All will be well when “xxxx” happens.”
“I’m in misery waiting for this “xxxx” to work out.”
“If I don’t get “xxxx,” then I will be screwed.”
I see this fear and scarcity mentality so clearly in others because I now see it so clearly in myself. The paradox is that this way of working towards my dreams, being committed wholeheartedly  to a particular outcome, sabotaged my ability to create my life. It prevented me from dreaming, and dreaming big. It kept me in a stew of self perpetuated misery about my life Now as I worried like a dog on a bone about the future I just had to have. And it blocked the flow of something even better coming into my life.


Let Go to Take Control
The absolutely fascinating thing I am learning is that when I let go of the reigns, I actually have more control over how I am in my life. I don’t necessarily have more control over what my life looks like in specifics, but, I have control over who I am, how I act and how I feel in my life. You see, we are so powerful. More powerful than we can comprehend. We have a capacity to make meaning of anything, everything. We can choose our own perception and not buy into some else’s beliefs. We can choose to make positive or negative meaning of everything that happens in our lives. That is true empowerment. That is the paradox. To be powerful one must give up the power struggle. Instead of having a story “Life is doing something to me,” I am choosing to grow the story “Life is doing something for me.”


“A good traveler has no fixed plans and is not intent on arriving.” – Lao Tzu
Most of you know my husband and I have been planning on living outside the box for a few years. The form of our journey has shifted but the purpose is the same. We both want an adventure. We want to travel to places we have not seen before, be challenged to open our hearts and minds to whatever comes our way, and to trust. It takes trust to life outside the box. Trust that whatever happens is happening for a reason. Trust in our ability to take care of ourselves. Trust in the Universe’s desire for us to be happy and safe. Trust in synchronicity to guide us. We both want to be grown more by the adventures and the challenges of life. Life is so short and sweet and we want to Savor. Every. Single. Drop.


Living as an Offering 

A year and a half ago we both decide to feel the fear and do it anyway. We began to imagine a time when Jordan would be free to pursue his creativity and I would be free to write, mentor others, teach all the yoga and lead all the women’s circles and retreats I desire. We’ve held this vision clearly but generally, always with the desire to live it as an offering to this planet.
My mantra now is “This, or something better, for the highest good of all.”
Now, whenever I move from a place of ego, attachment, fear or scarcity, things tend to become muddled rather quickly, and I get tired, angry, sad, foggy. I can feel the struggle in my body and my intuition, and thus my creativity, comes to a grinding halt. But when I move from a place of believing that my life is an offering for the divine, I can’t help but be grateful for and trusting of whatever comes my way. Life takes on a flavor of flowing, abundance, gratitude, clarity and joy. My body feels alive, supple and at peace.


Be Careful What You Wish For
Some amazing, magical things are happening this week for us. Things that are happening for us, not to us. Big transitions that I must keep private for another week. But please stay tuned. I want to share this adventure with you, as an offering of inspiration and continual teaching, for both you and I. Let’s study, learn, risk, inspire and play together.


From my ever curious and wide-open-to-what-comes heart to yours,


Toi Lynn


21 days: ready, get set…


A secret labyrinth I found on top of a hill

Wow! It’s been an amazing ride since my 21 days, a time of rapid change filled with surprises:
A painful yet healing awakening.
A sudden move to a new location.
A new business venture.
The beginning of a new chapter in my life.
For anyone considering taking an extended clear-out-and-clarify-your-life retreat, be careful what you ask for…you just might get it.)

Continued from  21 days:  getting out of my own way

Ready, Get Set…

I’ve gotten numerous requests to back up and explain how to prepare for the 21 days.  So here you go, my friends.

Step 5.  Listen to YOUR internal wisdom

After 9 months of slowing down, I heard an insistent voice inside of me saying “Stop.  Unplug.  Be alone.  Make space for what is to come.  You are on a precipice.  Trust and let go.”   Most of us have felt afraid of slowing down, because if we really listen, we might have to act on what we hear. Once we hear our inner truth, it takes spiritual suicide, a form of self-immolation, to tune out our awakened wisdom.  It seems so much easier to play it safe, but this is just an illusion.  It’s physically sickening and emotionally exhausting to live small, to put our life force into a box.  We think it is a protected place, but the “comfort zone” becomes a death trap, a daily extinguishment of who we really are, and all we are meant to become.  Thoreau said “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.” I understand that quote now more than ever, and feel this truth deep in my bones.  I know you can feel it, too, this strange mix of numbness and anxiety, lethargy and restlessness, fear and desire.  These sensations are your body wisdom calling you to attend to yourself, to wake up and listen.

Step 6.  Befriend Fear

In the past I would’ve felt fear and used it to stop me from taking a leap.  But now I know that fear is signal to me that I’m about to do something very important.  I used to think fear meant I was making the wrong choice.  I used to be afraid of fear.  I used to believe fear was something to suppress or grow out of feeling.  Now I know fear is a lifelong companion.  It helps me to remember:

Thoughts are simply thoughts.
Feelings are simply feelings.
Just because I’m feeling afraid does not mean I have anything to be afraid about.
I can’t control my feelings but what I can do is not allow the feelings to control me.

I’ve discovered if I put chains around my fear and lock it in a box, the fear only grows into a monster.  So now I invite my fear, along with courage, for a chat where we can strike up a mutually satisfying agreement, one where I’m the boss and let the fear and courage work with me.   Courage is NOT the absence of fear, but an empowering relationship with it.  Courage wants me to live full out.  Fear just wants me to be safe, so I acknowledge her concerns, and then I remind her:  All of life is a risk.  Life is short.  Since most people lead lives of quiet desperation, the uncommon path is most likely the one to take.  I would rather look back on my life with satisfaction for all I have risked than have regret for all I have not done.

Step 8.  Ask Permission…from Yourself

In order to take a retreat, you have to get permission from the most important person in your life:  Yourself.   I’m done with asking permission from others.  That good little girl in me no longer runs the show.  What I’ve learned is that an empowered life is one lived from the inside out, not the outside in.  My empowerment allows others to be empowered as well.  My being happy allows others to be happy.  My taking risks allows others to take risks.  “But isn’t that selfish?” is something I often hear from others longing to break out of their self-created prisons.  I honestly believe that when we live a life of martyrdom and unfulfilled dreams, everyone suffers around us.   “The greatest burden a child must bear is the unlived life of the parents.” –C.G. Jung   Selfishness is thinking only of one’s self.  When we take into account how our decisions and actions will impact everyone around us, and choose for the highest good of all, this is not selfishness, but is actually love manifesting into conscious awareness and action.

Step 9.  Get prepared to go off the grid.  Unplugging can seem overwhelming, but is possible with some strategic planning.

  • Choose your length of time that fits with your life circumstances.  For me 21 days felt intuitively the perfect amount of time to clear out the clutter and form positive sustainable habits.  I was also confident that my friends , family, students and clients could do without for that period of time (and I could do without them).  Be kind to yourself in your own process, my friend.  For some, a day alone or even an entire evening dedicated to you is a radical step towards claiming your life.
  • Set your intention.  I used my 2013 intention for this retreat:  Fire and Sacred Vessel.  Fire to burn up any toxins in my body, mind and life so that I can become a sacred vessel of transformation in the world.
  • Set some goals.  My goals were:  Do yoga every day.  Meditate each morning.  Walk or hike each day.  Read as many inspirational books as I can.  Spend as much time in nature doing just about anything or nothing.  Take lots of pictures.  Paint, draw, write poetry any time inspiration hits.  Nourish myself with good food and plenty of rest.  Teach myself how to make meditation malas, how to blend aromatherapy and how to make beeswax candles.  Soak up every single moment of the 21 days as if they were my last.
  • Set a Daily schedule reflective of your intention and goals, and stick to it.  Contrary to what we creative types think, a schedule actually makes more time to create because you can’t get sidetracked into wasting time on your favorite avoidance techniques.  My schedule looked like this:

5:00 tea, journal, vision
5:30 read inspirational books or write
8:00 breakfast
8:30 meditate 30 minutes in the garden facing the sun
9:00 create…anything.
11:30 pack a picnic lunch
12:00 hike with Bodhi and then picnic
1:30 create, play, explore
4:00 yoga
5:00 prep for dinner
5:30 walk with husband
6:30 dinner alone
7:00 read inspirational books
At Sunset do my 3 Bs meditation
9:00 listen to guided mediation as I fall asleep

  • Notify your friends and loved ones ahead of time.    I sent an email to all my dear ones letting them know I’d be taking a silent retreat in solitude for 21 days.  I gave them my husband’s cell for emergencies.  I also stated exactly what I needed.  In a nutshell:   “Please no contact of any kind except for true life/death emergencies.  Trust me, and trust that I am doing a very good thing for myself.  No, there is nothing wrong.  Remember I love you and will return even more present to myself and to you.”
  • Notify all your social media contacts.  People are curious.  Our desires are more similar than you think.  Your choice to take a break is an inspiration to them, so share about it.
  • Set clear boundaries and continue to inspire by creating an intriguing voicemail message and email auto responder.  My autoresponder was my poem 21 days, and my voicemail began with “I’m currently taking 21 days away in order to create more 21 days away, followed by a request to go read my poem 21 days.
  • Set boundaries around electronics and media.  My choices were:  No TV.  No radio.  No internet except when I might need to research what I was creating or listen to a favorite guided meditation on YouTube.  No reading of newspapers, magazines or outside mail.  No social media interaction, so that meant deleting all social media apps on my IPhone.  I also set boundaries around my phone by turning off all push notifications.  I used the “Night mode” on my IPhone, which allows only designated “favorites” to ring, and made my husband my only favorite in case of emergencies. The only exception of staying open to the outside world for me was Instagram for posting, not reading.  Since a goal for my retreat was to dive into creativity and use anything I created to inspire others, I made sure my Instagram was connected to all my social media.   Once a day when I felt particularly inspired by an image or insight, I would point, shoot, share my thought, press a button.  That was it.
  • Be explicit in what you need from anyone who lives with you.  As I was not leaving to go for 21 days to a private cottage somewhere, I had to set it up so that I would have my space, even while my husband was in it.  We made the agreement that during the day I would have absolute solitude and silence.  On work days, when he got home we would do a quick check in, hug and snuggle, and then go our separate ways.  We also agreed that we could take walks together each evening, in silence, and talk only if urgent or important.  Those conscious quick connections and walks were a pleasure for both of us, and kept us feeling connected even when we were apart.
  • Do solid pre-planning to make sure all finances, appointments, errands and household details are taken care ahead of time.
  • Gather your tools that will inspire you during your retreat:  Books, journals, arts supplies, meditation tools.   For me that also meant preordering what I needed to create my new Etsy store product (malas, candles, aromatherapy).
  • Create your sacred space.  I cleaned our cottage well ahead of time and put fresh flowers around the house.  I also recreated my altar space to inspire me in my process.

After all this was done, I was ready and set to go.

Still to come…
Bliss (little threads of insights and images during the retreat)
Cracking Open to Love (a powerful awakening) and
Going For It! (big changes resulting from that time away)


the opposite of loneliness

As I step off that cliff of safety into the exciting unknown of my future, I am aware there are many of you doing the same at this time.  What an incredible moment this is in our collective transformation as humans!  We are being challenged to trust and go to the next level of our potential, as individuals and as part of many gathering teams, tribes and circles all over the planet.  As I have shared my fears and dreams, I have been hearing from you about yours.  Many of us our experiencing the same processes:

 Facing fears that arise over what we are being called to change and to do.

Releasing judgement about what our lives were supposed to be up to now, and surrendering attachment to what we think they should be in the future.

Intensely desiring to expand, to awaken, to live more fully despite the consequences.

Realizing that we have to let go of the illusion of control, surrender to the flow and pacing of things and allow support to come to us in many forms.

It feels like a form of spiritual healing crises for many of us, where the toxins of sabotaging myths, habits and beliefs are coming up to be cleared out in order to make room to fulfill our true potential.  The cleansing itself can be anxiety producing, even painful, but the wholeness on the other side is well worth it.  This collective awakening is happening all around the globe, and I want you to remember this:  You are not alone.  We really are on this journey together.

I want to share with you an incredible piece of writing by a bright light that was taken from this world this last Saturday in a car accident.  It is well worth the read.  Even though Marina Keegan was just 22, and she is speaking to her fellow graduating classmates at Yale, I read her words and I know she is speaking to all of us.  She was an old soul who saw the big picture and was passionately moving forward to make great change in this world.  As a prolific political activist, actor and writer, Marina spoke to the part of us that still believes it is never too late, and that we are someone who is part of something bigger than ourselves.  “It’s not quite love and it’s not quite community; it’s just this feeling that there are people, an abundance of people, who are in this together.”

Here is her piece she wrote just a few days before she died.

We don’t have a word for the opposite of loneliness, but if we did, I could say that’s what I want in life. What I’m grateful and thankful to have found at Yale, and what I’m scared of losing when we wake up tomorrow and leave this place.

It’s not quite love and it’s not quite community; it’s just this feeling that there are people, an abundance of people, who are in this together. Who are on your team. When the check is paid and you stay at the table. When it’s four a.m. and no one goes to bed. That night with the guitar. That night we can’t remember. That time we did, we went, we saw, we laughed, we felt. The hats.

Yale is full of tiny circles we pull around ourselves. A cappella groups, sports teams, houses, societies, clubs. These tiny groups that make us feel loved and safe and part of something even on our loneliest nights when we stumble home to our computers — partner-less, tired, awake. We won’t have those next year. We won’t live on the same block as all our friends. We won’t have a bunch of group-texts.

This scares me. More than finding the right job or city or spouse – I’m scared of losing this web we’re in. This elusive, indefinable, opposite of loneliness. This feeling I feel right now.

But let us get one thing straight: the best years of our lives are not behind us. They’re part of us and they are set for repetition as we grow up and move to New York and away from New York and wish we did or didn’t live in New York. I plan on having parties when I’m 30. I plan on having fun when I’m old. Any notion of THE BEST years comes from clichéd “should haves…” “if I’d…” “wish I’d…”

Of course, there are things we wished we did: our readings, that boy across the hall. We’re our own hardest critics and it’s easy to let ourselves down. Sleeping too late. Procrastinating. Cutting corners. More than once I’ve looked back on my High School self and thought: how did I do that? How did I work so hard? Our private insecurities follow us and will always follow us.

But the thing is, we’re all like that. Nobody wakes up when they want to. Nobody did all of their reading (except maybe the crazy people who win the prizes…) We have these impossibly high standards and we’ll probably never live up to our perfect fantasies of our future selves. But I feel like that’s okay.

We’re so young. We’re so young. We’re twenty-two years old. We have so much time. There’s this sentiment I sometimes sense, creeping in our collective conscious as we lay alone after a party, or pack up our books when we give in and go out – that it is somehow too late. That others are somehow ahead. More accomplished, more specialized. More on the path to somehow saving the world, somehow creating or inventing or improving. That it’s too late now to BEGIN a beginning and we must settle for continuance, for commencement.

When we came to Yale, there was this sense of possibility. This immense and indefinable potential energy – and it’s easy to feel like that’s slipped away. We never had to choose and suddenly we’ve had to. Some of us have focused ourselves. Some of us know exactly what we want and are on the path to get it; already going to med school, working at the perfect NGO, doing research. To you I say both congratulations and you suck.

For most of us, however, we’re somewhat lost in this sea of liberal arts. Not quite sure what road we’re on and whether we should have taken it. If only I had majored in biology…if only I’d gotten involved in journalism as a freshman…if only I’d thought to apply for this or for that…

What we have to remember is that we can still do anything. We can change our minds. We can start over. Get a post-bac or try writing for the first time. The notion that it’s too late to do anything is comical. It’s hilarious. We’re graduating college. We’re so young. We can’t, we MUST not lose this sense of possibility because in the end, it’s all we have.

In the heart of a winter Friday night my freshman year, I was dazed and confused when I got a call from my friends to meet them at EST EST EST. Dazedly and confusedly, I began trudging to SSS, probably the point on campus farthest away. Remarkably, it wasn’t until I arrived at the door that I questioned how and why exactly my friends were partying in Yale’s administrative building. Of course, they weren’t. But it was cold and my ID somehow worked so I went inside SSS to pull out my phone. It was quiet, the old wood creaking and the snow barely visible outside the stained glass. And I sat down. And I looked up. At this giant room I was in. At this place where thousands of people had sat before me. And alone, at night, in the middle of a New Haven storm, I felt so remarkably, unbelievably safe.

We don’t have a word for the opposite of loneliness, but if we did, I’d say that’s how I feel at Yale. How I feel right now. Here. With all of you. In love, impressed, humbled, scared. And we don’t have to lose that.

We’re in this together, 2012. Let’s make something happen to this world.

I’d love to hear your thoughts, your fears, your dreams and stories of your journey below.  Remember, your sharing allows others to share what they need to share as well.

From my grateful and never alone heart to yours,

Toi Lynn


a call to trust

Sunflower Petals of Forgiveness Ritual, Wild Woman Circle

As I write to you, I’m here at home sitting at my love desk (Really, it is a glass table my husband Jordan bought for me that has the word “love” etched in multiple languages all over it), door wide open to blue sky, chilly breezes and birds singing ecstatically to the spring.

It’s been an interesting past 2 weeks since my birthday Equinox rituals of offering petals of forgiveness to the ocean and the planting of seed/prayers on Mt. Tham.  Many of the sunflower petals I threw had to do with trust. Maybe you can relate to at least one of these:

I forgive myself for not trusting myself, my choices, my intuition, my callings in my life. 

I forgive myself for not trusting the flow of my life. 

I forgive myself for not trusting love, and buying into fear. 

I release the thought I have to do this all alone. 

I release the fear of being seeing completely, in ALL my colors. 

I release the thought it is not safe to be fully awake and powerful. 

The visioning seeds/prayers had the same theme, of asking the universe to create the space and change in my life that allows me to really live into my highest life purpose, and a promise given that I would trust what comes my way.

Be careful what you wish for, as you just might get it.  The universe has responded with a fiery “Ok, you want change?  I’ll give you change.”   Tuesday I got a call that upended my world and knocked me flat for a moment.  Normally I would just pick myself up and begin to work like crazy to fix the problem, make things better.  So I decided to do the opposite.  I gave myself a gift of a full day of falling. I cried and allowed myself to feel all my feelings and to be supported by dear friends in my fear, sadness and despondency.  Even though I felt “weak” I knew that in order to claim my power I needed to surrender.  I cleared my calender for the week to meditate, journal, and become more present to myself, my husband and my life.  Trusting my instincts, I have continued what I started a few weeks ago, clearing like crazy.  Clearing out old wounds of pain.  Clearing out tears I have not cried that needed to be released for my cleansing.  Clearing out negative beliefs and stories.  Clearing out my physical body and physical space.  Clearing to make room for what is to come.

I have no idea what is to come, but I can tell you that while yesterday was a day where I just wanted to give it up and fall on the floor in a puddle of mush, today I feel filled with hope, potential and yes, trust.  I wonder if this is what the caterpillar feels like just before they become what they are meant to be?  Some caterpillars actually do break down into a gooey glob before their transformation into beauty.

So here is my commitment to myself and to you:  I will answer the call to trust.  I will allow myself the space to be me and to become even more me.  I will practice trust daily, step by step, even breath by breath if I need to.   Come join me.  As French author Anais Nin wrote: “The day will come when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”

Sending you a virtual bouquet of flowers, each one reminding you of your true inner beauty and essence blossoming into life.

BTW, about the pic above:  A warm Thank you! to the women who came to the first of many to come Wild Woman Circles.  We shared, we cried, we danced and laughed, cleared out old stuff with the sunflower forgiveness ritual and created a safe, sacred place for our healing and growth.  Powerful spirit sisters, I am so excited to see where we go! Attached is the picture from our ritual.  For those who were not with us, since we could not travel to mama ocean, we brought her to us.  Such a sweet release it was!

Much love,

Toi Lynn